I cry then I smile...

I cried watching him pack his things yesterday.

I cried while falling asleep in his arms last night.

I cried while driving to the airport this morning.

I cried watching him kiss Evan goodbye.

I cried while I watched him disappear through the gate door I could no longer see him. 

I cried while driving home, knowing he wasn't by my side.

I cried when I realized he wouldn't be coming home from work this evening.

I cried when I put Evan to bed by myself tonight.

I'm crying now, knowing I will not kiss him good night.

Right before boarding the plane.

(Evan had just fallen asleep)

But,

I smile thinking of his return.

I smile knowing he will do an amazing job.

I smile when I see his hand writing on my Mother's Day Card.

I smile when I walk into our bathroom and I can still smell his soap from his shower this morning.

I smile when I look at Evan.

I smile when I think about his first phone call home.

I smile because I am married to an amazing man who happens to also be my best friend.

I smile because my husband is a true hero and I am so proud of him.

I think we dream so that we do not have to be apart so long.  If we are in each other's dreams, we can play together all night.

~ Bill Watterson, Calvin & Hobes